My flu is killing me. Almost every few minutes my mucus would start flowing out from my nose, and perhaps because of that i felt restless and weak. And, i had insomnia again.

These few night i got very little sleep and the times i did nod off it's when the sun is up and shining.
Sigh~ What's wrong with me?

My eczema has flared up again. Those few mornings when i manage to wake up feeling fresh and without the tearing feeling from my skin, i never fail to smile to myself and thank God for that. You might think it's silly, but because those times became exceptionally rare, it makes me someone like that.
I thank God for everything.

I'm neither Christian nor Buddist.
Neither am i an atheist.
I believe in Got but i'm a free-thinker.
The existence of God allows me to understand fate and destiny, roles and responsibilities, fortunes and misfortunes.
I was told by my Dad that life is like a 'package'. It contains the amount of happiness and sufferings that one has to experience in life. Hence, the more you suffer in earlier life the less you'll suffering in the later.
Well, it does make sense to me.
There's a saying, "everything exist for a reason" yeh?
So perhaps my eczema is there for a reason too? Haha.
Thus, i do hold faith that one day... i will recover. Because eventually i would have suffered enough from this disease and able to enjoy the 'available happiness' in my 'package'?

Or perhaps, the above theory is false.
It's just something that was being passed down to people in times of distress to give them hope and the necessary strength to move on in life.