不高兴。


又能怎样。

Love is always patient and kind. 
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited. 
It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.

一次的痛哭，换一次领悟。
我能走出吗？


我会有筋疲力尽的一天吗？


我的坚持能维持多久？


我的信念能改变什么吗？


无力的挣扎。

城市像一座迷宫但我不服 
谁说一个人不能走出
与你相爱迷糊让步到你退出 
再多分岔路回忆很清楚 我慢慢重组


每一天我和我的影子散步 
在朋友面前坚持不哭
曾经他们和我一样相信幸福 
这一刻孤独赖在房里住 我怎么驱逐


怎么在爱里微加幸福 
少一点自由就变负 
太多了你说我的关心是一种束缚
怎么在爱里微加幸福 
再多的微笑也比不上一滴眼泪的苦 
无心犯的错误

从一开始的陌生 
到后来沉默无声 
谁能想象我们当初爱那么深
想假装你是路人 
想再一次变陌生 
但我爱过你 我承认

是谁犯的错误 
你也不在乎

天灵灵，地灵灵~
保佑我明天顺利过关！！！>.<
I need some luck .... x_x


读到脑袋爆炸，脑浆都干了。

突然感到很茫然。
对于未来的许多期待也渐渐消失。


迷失了。


到底该怎么做，
才是对的，
才会开心呢？


希望时间能帮助我找到答案。

Mug mUg muG!!!

今天收到一位朋友的来信，很是高兴。
首先要谢谢她，还记得我这位远在澳大利亚的朋友。^_^
她写了两句话让我十分深刻，她说，她不需要一位成功的朋友，她要一个快乐的朋友。
谢谢，我很感动。


在这个现实的世界里，无可奈何已经成为了人生的一部份。
很多事情，没有做与不做的选择，只有做得好或是不好的差别。
成功背后的付出，是很多人都忽视的。
一般人往往只在乎结果，不是过程。
小的时候，爸常说过程很重要。努力过后得到的成果是最好的。成功与否，他不在乎。
可是到了大学，他变了。
现在，他说结果比过程重要。
即便你如何努力，如果失败了，别人只会觉得你可怜。
他说，到了大学，你必须在最短的时间内做玩应做的事，并且要做得好。
确实阿~  他说的一点也不错。尤其是走进了社会以后，老板只会看成果，不是过程。


我希望在学业上，付出我百分之一百的努力。
不论结果如何，最起码，我不会有遗憾。

很困，可是还不想睡。得好好珍惜这样的夜晚。
放假了~ 
虽说是‘放假’ 但其实有好多好多事要做。


我总会有想要放弃目标的念头：“太艰难了~ 你办不到的。放弃吧……”
可是我知道，如果我现在放弃了，我将来一定会后悔。
没有经过一番努力，怎么知道自己可不可以呢？


以目前的情形来看，我的目标的确离我很遥远…… 
唉~ 
事实上，除了圆梦以外，我更想成为父母的骄傲。
我总是笨笨的，什么事都做不好。
可是，幸运的是，身边总会出现能够帮助自己的人。
这一路，虽然在学业和皮肤上面受了不少苦，但是我还是觉得自己很幸福。
身边总有雪中送炭的朋友，而且还有他，一个真正爱我的人。
老爸常说我是个很好命的人，什么都不用做就可以移民过来澳大利亚。
确实啊~  和别人相比，我的确是很幸运的。


但是，过来这里之后，我觉得自己的生活圈子变小了。
现在的我很少和朋友出去玩，比较喜欢呆在家里，而且一般都是和他在一起。
我知道这样不是很营养，但是我却很开心。
这样的生活很平淡，很简单，却很快乐。
虽然我和他在一起快要两年了，可是心里那种甜甜的滋味依旧存在。
不晓得这样的感觉会不会持久下去……
唉~ 未来的路模糊不清……
以后…… 不晓得还会出现怎样的变化？
十年后的你我，会变成什么样呢？

其实很多事情只需要去习惯，“习惯就好”。 


是不是不论什么事情，只要习惯了就不会有感觉，就麻木了呢？


如果什么都可以去‘习惯’，那么麻木了的感情，麻木了的人生，还有意义么？ 


或许，那只是一个借口。
给自己的一个借口。
让自己不在寻找答案的过程中再次受到伤害？


或许，我真的需要习惯。
因为，习惯就好。

最近发生了好多事。其中有一件让我有跌到谷底的感觉。
我当时就这样坐在床上放空，发呆，然后不自觉地流眼泪。哎~


课业也增加了不少。只好硬着头皮撑下去~
哈哈。要知道我一有麻烦，我身边那位也会跟着遭殃 =X


大学真是个锻炼人的地方，还可以让你见识见识各种奇奇怪怪的人！
其中有位马来西亚的朋友，她真是让我无语极了！
她可真是典型的马来西亚学生。我没别的意思~
只是她那么不要面子的老缠着别人要文章还真是我头一次碰到。


好了，就这样吧。
大家一起加油吧！ ^_^

到头来，
可以相信的人，是自己。
可以依赖的人，也是自己。


在这个世界上，
没有人应该要为谁牺牲，
没有人应该要为谁活着，
也没有人应该要为谁负责。


为自己牺牲，
为自己而活着，
为自己的人生负责。


可以帮助自己的，
也只有自己。


靠自己，就对了？

You make me cry
make me smile
make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don’t want to say goodbye

You make me cry
make me smile
make me feel
the joy of love
oh kissing you
Thank you for all the love
you always give to me
oh I love you

Haven't been feeling good nowadays.
But what can be worse compared to the disaster in Japan?
We're the fortunate ones.
Cherish what we have, including our precious life.


The power of nature is shocking.
It created lives, then ended them, whenever it wishes.


May God have mercy on those people...

在我内心的最深处，我知道很多事情都已经变得不一样。
这个世界上没有所谓的‘永远’。


承诺…… 
只不过是当时的一时感触，


将来的路那么遥远…… 
谁又能肯定命运会有怎样的安排呢？


如果你问我，你相信永恒不变的爱么？
以前的我或许会回答你，我相信。
但是现在的我，一定会说，“这世界上没有这种东西”。

在我最伤心难过的时候，我居然不知道我可以找谁。
我开始怀念新加坡。


我想起晓雪特地来探望我的那天。
我想起我身边的许多朋友。


我可以找谁……


放声大哭。
是我现在唯一能做的。

Heaps of things happened recently.

No doubt, the most devastating one would be the flood crisis in Queensland and Brisbane.

It was the worst flood in Australia's history.

Numerous homes and infrastructures were submerged in the flood water where only the roofs could be seen.

Heartbreaking pictures shown on the news forces me to question the many things in life.
You could have worked really hard throughout your life and finally succeeded in pursuing your dream, had a good career and built up a great home and family. It takes years and years of hard work to reach that goal. However, natural disaster only takes one minute, or even less than that, to destroy everything that you had. It shatters your home, your possession, your dreams, your hopes, your everything...
Imagine how that feels.


We were fortunate to be where we are now.
Whatever unhappiness that may come to us, we should always bear that in mind that we're the fortunate ones.
Because we had a proper shelter, a house to live in, no unpleasant smell, no mud on our floor.
Do not neglect the little things that we had, because who knows when you'll start to regret when they're all being taken away.

Victoria wasn't affected by the flood, but the cyclone that'd hit Queensland send storms all over Victoria and flooded several suburbs. 

I was working when the storm hits us. Water kept gushing into the restaurant, flooding the kitchen, toilet, entrance, as well as a third of our dine-in area. 

Many places had already been flooded and the power was out, hence, the restaurant was packed with customers and it was chaotic. 

Several customers talked among themselves while waiting for their food, discussing about how bad the storm was. I heard it blew off the roof of a shopping centre, which was only a few kilometres away. It was shocking how destructive a storm could be. 

The rain persisted for quite a while until late night. Then another one comes when everyone's asleep.

That night, I dreamt that my house was flooded. 

The rashes on my body and my face are fading... though there are still scars and marks left.
I've never felt so fresh and energetic in the morning before. Although the dryness of my skin could be felt but it's nothing compared to what i've gone through. I can see the happiness on my parents' faces. They can finally be at ease.

Had a happy time at work today, was smiling and laughing away with the chefs and delivery man in the kitchen. I love the harmony and cheeful atmosphere created while working. However, I somewhat dislike my colleague, Tom. I dislike his 'know-it-all' attitude. He ought to be more humble you know, and i told him that straight in the face. Hah! He'd embarrassed himself today... I find it amusing and had a good laugh, but somehow i felt sorry for him. And i felt guilty for "informing" the boss bout' Tom's ignorance. It wasn't an intentional act, i just thought it's funny so i told the boss in Tom's presence. I guess I should have think twice before saying, i don't wanna hurt him or anything like that >.<
Well well, as you know, that's just me.

Hopefully i'll be able to wake up early tomorrow morning to join my dad for breakfast at Box Hill. Sorry Jolene I can't visit you YET. I guess you don't really need me since you've your wonderful family by your side =P. Hey hey i don't mean anything ok? I'm happy that you're happy... ^_^
And Sally, i miss you too!!! Jolene said she'll invite us all to her house for steamboat around Chinese New Year? I've been working these days... almost EVERYDAY. Sorry for my absence on New Year's Eve as well. Shall see you all sOoOoooon!!!!

Take Care!

My dad's loud and distinctive snoring sound penetrates through my bedroom door the minute he went to bed. It wouldn't be a wise idea to sleep after him, i've always thought. But somehow, it brings serenity to my sleepless nights.

I was being taken to another chinese doctor in Richmond this afternoon, who claimed to specialise in dermatology. "Well, let's give it another try," I comforted myself. After 8 years of suffering, i doubt any doctor is capable enough to minimise my anguish, let alone cure.
My skin was giving me a hard time again this morning, hence i wasn't in a good mood. I wasn't smiling throughout my trip to the city for lunch and to the clinic.
I came to realised that i've lost my cheerful self and the glimpse of hope that i've always been carrying to keep me moving. The memory of my last consultation with a chinese doctor was still vivid in my mind. I was smiling all the way when i told him that his medicine wasn't doing its job.
I think i've reached my limit.

This vietnamese doctor seemed very proffessional and confident with himself and those medicine that he's prescribed. He told me and my parents that we'll be able to see an effect after 3 days of consumption, but to cure, it needs at least 6 months.
I was stunned, then i let out a little laugh.
It's not that i lacked confidence in him, it's just unbelievable, and somewhat impossible.
If it's such an easy task, why on Earth have i been tormented by it?!?!

Nevertheless, the extinguished hope in me starts to grow yet again.

Thank God for everything.
I know you've always been there.